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篇名: Blue Bayou
作者: b e b e 日期: 2006.04.29  天氣:  心情:



"Dad~~~ I'm going to the bookstore! Be back soon!"


"Hello, Winnie?  It's me!  Just wanna tell you that I'm OK... Don't worry about me!  I'm all figuring out now.  I'll see you tomorrow! Bye!"


"Hey, you!  Nothing... just wanna hear your voice......
Me? Oh, I'm home!  You'll go baclk to the dorm later, right?  Drive safely, okay? It's late!......... See you tomorrow then.  Bye, baby!"


That night, she broke the record!  She lied 3 times, to 3 different people just in one night.   She wasn't calling for help...... She was saying goodbye.

 
Then, she picked a spot and sat down...
Three hundred and twenty-something pills that she had been collecting in the past week, with two big bottles of water, she swallowed them all.  She gagged couple times, but she eventually finished what she had planned. 


Then, she stood up, and walked towards to "that building".  The building that she had spent so much time watching him played ball.  Of course, the door was locked, it was almost 01:00 AM.  She started to feel weak and dozy......  then she leant on the front door and sat down...... 

She thought " This is it.  No more sadness, no more pain, no more tears......" She smiled a bit, felt quite peaceful in mind, "I'm sorry...... please don't be sad for me...... If you all could just understand... this is the better way out for me...... I'm really sorry, but I'm just so tired...... so tired...... so tried......"


She completely dozed off......  Finally, she felt nothing.  No sadness, no pain.  Nothing!  Nothing at all.





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"老爸 我去書局逛逛 等會就回來囉"


"文玲 我啦!  跟妳說一聲我沒事 別擔心 我在我家附近夜市逛逛 買吃的 買完就會回家了 明天我在去妳們班找妳囉 嗯! bye-bye"


"喂? 哈! 是我啦!  沒事 只是想打給你...... 你等下要回學校宿舍喔?  路上小心唷!  嗯? 我在家啊! 嗯! 明天見 拜拜~~~" 


那晚 她說謊說到破紀錄了 一個晚上對三個人撒了三個謊...
很奇怪吧 她一點都不感到無助徬徨 並非暗示性的求救 她很清楚 她只是藉著撒謊 一一向親愛的家人朋友道別


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